Sunday, February 26, 2006
it's the end of reading week!
so damn fast it went by.
it's a serious case of deja-vu.
i remember this time last year i was in the same crappy emotional state.
what the hell am i doing? really...what am i doing.
i swore i'll be stronger, i promised myself i won't let myself be vulnerable again,
but look what happened.
i was up in guelph the past weekend and it was hard because i kept getting reminded of the time he came up with me for chinese new year.
every corner i turned, everything i touched- everything reminded me of him.
i miss him.
it made me sad for a while, but my cousins were so nice about it though.
they kept making fun of him and how ridiculous he looked when he bowled and i know they were just trying to make me feel better.
i think they feel bad for me- and maybe you feel sorry for me too,
but i'm okay now. really.
of course i still experience moments when i get all weirded out but its okay now.
if anything, it will make me tougher.
everything is just about getting used to, isn't it?
the more people you learn to say goodbye to, the easier it gets.
and after enough time passes by, you won't even remember the pain you went through.
you'll eventually be numb to all the memories.
right now i'm okay.
and i think i'll be okay for a while.
good night guys
wai * 9:29 PM *